No Choices has morphed into Too Many Choices.

Here is the back ground for this little post:
 In July I had  about 3 outfits or combination of outfits that I could wear.  Even though I adore fashion( a huge fan of Project Runway, love looking up fashion week on the internet and checking out what the designers are creating, love looking at the runway looks for the Hollywood events, I will even watch Joan River's Fashion Police every now and then. Would love to meet Tim Gunn in person someday and would actually like to design my own dress some day-Bucket List Item  #7.) I have never looked to myself to be a fashion statement. I wear what I have, I love the ease of these 3 outfits cause its pick one, put it on and I am out the door. Takes no time at all to get ready to go anywhere.   

As my weight loss increases  my dress size decreases I have taken to Closet Shopping. Closet Shopping is going to the back of my closet, looking for a garment in the size I currently wear. There were a few items I got  that were actually a little small when I opened them Christmas am. So not wanting to part with them I stored them.  Now I can put somethings into service. 

The problem it creates is now I have more options then just the 3 outfits. I have more opportunity for mixing and matching, I have more opportunity to spend more time decision  making over what to wear.  That's the part I should love, spending time on myself, taking some pride in my wardrobe, creating my look.  Except that's the part I hate. Spending time on myself, putting me first. It is simply out of my comfort zone.  I am learning that I prefer the quick grab and go no thought to getting dressed scenario. So I am in this weird place mentally.

 Guess I better get comfortable with the whole me first and being comfortable with taking time to decide what to wear on any given day.  What happens when I am successful and someday I can actually wear a designer dress from one of the outlets. So I guess its get good with making quick clothing decisions.  LOL.

Problem solving: I could just keep my choices small and rotate clothes in and out of the closet like we used to do with the kids toys.

It's an odd time, I say that because I am finding that I am getting more comfortable with the band. More secure in what I can eat and what I can't.  As a result I have started to notice that I am taking a few more liberties with my food choices. I actually had a cupcake the other day as well as a piece of my son's birthday cake.  Being a little more brave with trying new things has a positive and a negative affect . The positive affect is trying more healthy food, like salad, having more choices. The negative affect is that some of those choices could be non healthy foods, Its all about staying in control and on top of the behaviors that have led to weight gain in the past. That is not an easy task, I am sure anyone who has struggled with weight can attest to that.  So its one foot in front of the other and one day at a time.  Not to mention a lot of positive self talk.



Thanks for reading.

Note to self and other Things I Find Interesting

Note to self. 

1. Don't get a pint of sugar free ice cream and think you  will just eat a quarter of it. Apparently  I cant measure appropriately, before I knew it  I had polished off the whole thing. 680 calories isn't great but its also not earth shattering. If it was premium ice cream it would have been deadly. lol  Perhaps this is exactly the reason someone invented the ice cream scoop, to protect one from themselves when eyeball measuring challenged or while simply automatic eating.

2. There may have been a reason that you couldn't find the basket of chocolate chip cookies at work. It might have been because they are not on your Forever Diet and  God/Higher Power(what ever you believe) was protecting you from your self. Knowing that you were just bored with the prospect of another cup of Yogurt  and also knew that your rationalization of honoring a  friend, eating a cookie that someone made for her birthday,  not the best choice in honoring your friend when a card or a hug would have been just as nice even better.  Instead of searching for these missing cookies all around the department your time would have been better used by saying a prayer of thanks and praise that once again you were being protected from yourself.

3. It really is OK  to toss out the second pair of pants what wont support the weight of your beeper and fail to stay in the upright position when walking.  Last thing I want to do is accidentally flash my underwear while walking down the hall in the work place, store or even walking into my house, Even if I have painstakingly color coordinated my granny panties to match my pants or my shirt..

4. It's very appropriate to take a moment even if to myself to applaud the fact that  I could actually fit comfortably into the chair at a recent conference I attended,   It's not bragging if its just a moment and the celebration is low key to not bring tons of attention to myself or any attention for that matter. These are milestones, rewards from all the hard work and can be cherished even if I am the only one that is aware.  I have always tried very hard to be unassuming and not in someones face with stuff. Humble. I don't want to loose that and become obnoxious but also I think there are times one can appropriately put themselves out there, a little attention for the right reason I am thinking is OK.  Feel free to let me know if I have this concept all wrong.

5.  I learned today that when I am foraging for food its probably because I am bored, avoiding something(? housework) or have a craving that I am not satisfying. Perhaps its going to be better in the long run to have what I want either a little or a lot. My a lot is still much less than its ever been, thank you lap band. I think otherwise I end up eating a lot of little things, while all very healthy  still have some calories that over time would add up.


I guess that is it for now. Don't want to overwhelm.  Thanks for reading.